Thursday, November 16, 2006
Sleeping when the sun rises
It's 7.30am and I haven't slept the whole night.
This is quite a new feeling, the quiet morning. The quiet morning, is quieter than the quiet night. The quiet night lingers on. The quiet morning is fleeting. The quiet night is pretty romantic. The quiet morning, is pretty romantic in its own way too. The air is cool and fresh. Birds are chirping at the window. Yes, birds really start chirping when the sun rises. How I wish I could live like this forever, to enjoy the quiet morning without having something to rush for. To sit and listen to quiet morning songs.
But the sun is rising higher. The rays are shining into my room. And its slowly killing my cool quiet morning. Everything that you can look forward to, is soon to be over.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Jesus Walks
This is the coolest song ever with the word "Jesus" in it. (By the way, you can't hear the song on Firefox coz of some missing plugin, but you can hear it on IE. Somebody tell me how to play the song on firefox pls)
I think I may even use this song for Dance Night choreo. hurhur.
So anyway, what happened to the whole "Romancing Singapore" campaign? I thought they wanted to increase birth rates. Now they realise its easier to just import citizens. And in today's Sunday Times, there was a letter asking for advice on wills and stuff. Basically the woman wanted to make sure her malaysian husband gets no share of the HDB flat after she dies. She recounts how that guy (her husband) did not contribute to the flat, the flat is under her sole name because her husband is malaysian, but the guy did used to contribute to household expenses. (The guy did not have a steady income or something.) From what I learnt, if it were a woman who did not contribute to the purchase price of the house but did contribute to household expenses, chances are she can get a share of the house. I don't know what the results will be like if the roles are reversed.
Legal issues aside, is this sad or what. My last wish before I die is to make sure the person I married gets no share of my damn HDB flat which I slaved 20-30 years for to pay off its damn mortgage. This is one big reason why I have the motivation to work hard and earn money. So that my future beloved wife won't hate me till her dying day.
And one day I shall be the lawyer to help make sure you get your last wish.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Law of Paradoxes
I planned my calendar to start my exam mugging NOW. Today.
So anyway, I stoned from about 3pm to now, about 1am. I basically read a bit of Freakanomics, read wikipedia, surfed blogs, checked 3 email accounts, did some administrative stuff, glanced at my syllabus to know how much I must study, lie on my bed and not sleep, sit and listen to the radio, shit a bit, peed a few times, washed my face a few times, showered twice, ate dinner, checked email, surfed blogs, surfed youtube, peed a few more times, washed my feet, washed my face, washed my specs, threw some clothes around, and basically things like that.
Something is not right. Somebody save me.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
The World Outside
There are ants crawling all over my laptop. This is despite my greatest efforts to clean my room regularly. There is deep choking haze that makes faraway buildings look like impending doom. There are shallow people all around who don't seem to appreciate the things they have been given. Nice people, but perhaps nonetheless shallow. There is Windows live messenger disconnecting ever once too often. There are things lost which can never be found again.
There are people playing games and holding their cards close to their chest. But this makes it so much more beautiful, when they finally give you everything. Everything that is theirs to give. There are nice people out there who don't play games and don't get much. There are people who are used to standing alone. And there are people who always fail to appreciate how fortunate they were, and how fortunate they are.
And despite everything, every little thing that is wrong with this world and the world outside, I think, things are going to be fine. Because the universe unfolds as it should. It always does.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
The Coin Toss
I'm blogging again!! Coz why bother your friends with your whining and bitching when they've got better things to do with their time.
So anyway, today I was deciding what to do for the evening and night. I was free of commitments and didn't exactly have much mood to do any work. So I was thinking if I should call up this bunch of friends I usually go drinking with. But I was feeling wishy washy and undecisive, just kinda in a fucked up mood and didn't feel like doing anything. So I made a coin toss.
Now there's a ritual to a coin toss. First, you should use a 50 cent coin or 1 dollar coin. Something of some weight. And before you toss is, think of the question in your mind. Look at both sides of the coin once or twice. You would get a gut feeling of which side it is likely to land on. It's like the coin is communicating to you. Decide which side you want to represent which choice. (Now there's an issue here. Since you already have a gut feeling which side the coin is going to land on, put that side to represent the thing you think you should do. So in a way, the coin is not deciding for you. You have, at some level, already decided.) So in this case I had the feeling it was going to land on tails. I put tails to represent calling out my friends, and heads to represent I should just stay put in hall and see what comes along. Then I tossed the coin.
Sure enough, it landed on tails.
Don't toss it a few more times and tell yourself "best of 3". Coz that just means you don't really believe in the coin toss. You have too many doubts clouding your mind. Either just do it, or don't do it.
I still decided not to call my friends out. I was just feeling toooo fucked up. And tired. So I put the coin away.
I tried to study in the library but it was unproductive. I went gym with a friend and it was crowded like hell. This gym usually has 2-4 people, including myself. Tonight there were like 20 people in a 3m x 2m room (ok I just made up the measurements), all ego and buff. I went supper with a good friend, came back, bumped into people I'd rather forget. Basically, not a great night.
Moral of the story, if you ever want to use a coin toss to decide on your fate, then follow its advice. Sometimes it'll give you a screwed up decision just to remind you not to rely on it too much. But generally, its advice is good.
Or don't do a coin toss at all. There are greater forces at work that you'll never understand.
One thing good that came out of a sucky night, it slightly jolted me out of my stagnant fucked up feeling. Tomorrow shall be a better day.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
The Cure
I think this blog is almost redundant.
Some months ago, someone told me she couldn't sleep, even though she was very, very tired. And she did look tired. She dresses well, very well, she interacts well with people, and she's hot in many people's eyes. She avoids the common clothes even though she would look good in them. She always wears something slightly different. She accessorises well. Big eyes, bright smile. She knows how to take care of her skin. And in front of many people, she's full of energy. Full of principles, yet lives a very real life.
But all I saw was how tired she was. I thought that beneath all that, there was a tired girl.
How wrong I was.
I'm very tired. And I can't sleep. And that's all I saw.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Love Is On The Way
Yesterday (Friday,) a very good friend of mine just flew off for exchange.
Bon voyage man. May we celebrate Christmas in New York, with friends by our sides and babes in our arms.
Lonely sidewalks
Silent night
Bring the evenin'
Deep inside
Hold me darling
Touch me now
Let the feelings
Free tonight
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight
Time of season
Wipes the tears
No rhyme or reason
No more fears
All the dreamin'
Is far behind
You are here now
Everythin's alright
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight
And in the morning
I'll be gone away
All the things are left behind
If you need me
I'll come night and day
Let's stop the hands of time
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight baby
Love is on the way
I can see it in your eyes
Let's give it one more try tonight
